“I’m not going, Aunt Carol. I can’t,” I told her while she stayed with me at Grandpa’s place because I refused to leave.
“Honey, he made that dress for you. He’d want you to wear it.”
“I know what he’d want. That doesn’t mean I can do it.”
She sat next to me and took my hand.
Every time I walked past it, I felt sick.
“Tina, listen to me. That man worked himself to the bone for one night. One night. Don’t let it sit in a closet.”
I didn’t answer her. But I didn’t say no again either.
***
The morning of prom, I stood in front of my closet for a long time. Then I pulled the dress out.
I ran my fingers over the tiny stitches near the waist, imagining his big, rough hands pushing that needle through, over and over.
I didn’t answer her.
I put it on and looked in the mirror.
“I’m wearing it for you, Grandpa. I’m gonna make you proud tonight. I promise.”
I sent Aunt Carol a message about what I was doing. I grabbed her car keys while she was out visiting a neighbor. She’d told me the car was mine for the night.
I headed out the door before I could change my mind.
I sent Aunt Carol a message about what I was doing.
***
I walked into the ballroom alone, the blue dress brushing softly against my knees.
String lights glittered from the ceiling, and the whole place smelled of hairspray and cheap punch.
I kept my eyes on the floor and told myself I only had to make it through one song for Grandpa.
Then I heard her voice.
“Oh my God, look!”
Lorraine stood near the drink table in a shimmery champagne gown that probably cost more than our rent.
Then I heard her voice.
Her friends turned in slow motion, like a pack of birds spotting something small. They looked at my dress and started laughing.
The same girls who’d always mocked me at school because of my clothes couldn’t help themselves.
“Oh, look, the local frog finally found a dress that matches her!” one commented.
Someone giggled behind a manicured hand.
Her friends turned in slow motion.
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