That became the story everyone kept.
Not what he had done.
What I had done in response.
My parents called it protection. The town called it necessary. The doctors dressed it up in softer language—impulse control disorder, emotional instability, volatility. I called it what it was: they were less afraid of cruelty than they were of a girl who fought back.
So I was sent away.
Ten years inside San Gabriel Psychiatric Hospital on the outskirts of Toluca teaches you strange things. It teaches you the exact weight of silence. The rhythms of locked doors. The comfort of routines so rigid they leave no room for surprise. It also teaches you where to put your rage when you are never allowed to show it.
I put mine into discipline.
Push-ups. Sit-ups. Pull-ups. Running in tight circles in the yard until my lungs burned. I made my body strong because it was the only part of me they couldn’t truly own. I learned to speak less, observe more, and wait.
In a strange way, I was not unhappy there. The rules were clear. No one pretended to love me while planning to break me. No one smiled and then betrayed me in the same breath.
Then Lidia came to visit.
