She looked at her hands for a moment, then back at him.
“But I have spent my whole life not knowing who you were, carrying a question with no answer. And now I have an answer.” She paused. “Even if the answer is hard, even if it hurts, I would rather have it than not.”
He nodded very slowly.
“Then what would you like to do?” he asked. And he meant it. He asked it with genuine openness, no agenda behind it. He was leaving it entirely to her. “What do you need from me?”
Rebecca thought about it.
“I need time,” she said. “I need to think about all of this properly, away from this house, in my own space. I need to feel what I feel without having to be anyone’s maid while I feel it.”
He nodded. “Of course.”
“And I have 1 question,” she said. “That I need you to answer truthfully.”
“Anything,” he said.
She looked at him directly.
“Did you ever think about us?” she asked. “Even once in 30 years, did you ever wonder what happened to her? To the baby?”
He held her gaze. He did not answer quickly. He did not reach for the comfortable answer. He sat with the question the way it deserved to be sat with.
“Yes,” he said finally. “Not often. I worked very hard to make sure it wasn’t often.” He paused. “But yes. In the quiet moments, the ones I couldn’t fill with work or plans or the next thing, yes. I wondered.”
He looked at her.
“I was just too afraid of the answer to go looking for it.”
Rebecca nodded.
She stood up slowly. She picked up her bag from beside the chair and held it in both hands.
“Good night, sir,” she said.
Then she paused, because that word—sir—felt strange in her mouth now in a way it had not before, like wearing a coat that no longer fit.
He noticed it too. She could see it in his face.
Neither of them said anything about it.
Not yet.
She walked down the hallway, through the front door, and along the flower-lined path to the gate. The night air was cool and clean. Above the city’s glow, a few stars were visible.
She let herself out and walked to the bus stop.
For the first time in her life, the question she had carried since she was 6 years old—the 1 she had drawn as an empty space in a picture, the 1 she had looked at the floor to avoid, the 1 she had carried quietly and alone for 23 years—was no longer a question.
It was still painful. It was still complicated. It was still something she would have to sit with for a long time before she knew what shape it would finally take in her life.
But it was no longer empty.
And for that night, that was enough.
Part 3
The weekend passed quietly.
