The sound of her voice almost undid you before she said a word.
“Eleanor,” she said. Not Mom. Not tonight. Her voice was stripped down to something raw and formal. “Did you know?”
You closed your eyes.
“Not until this morning.”
On the other end came a small, ruined silence. You could hear, somewhere behind her, a door closing. The muffled chaos of children in another room. A television left on because ordinary domestic noise is sometimes the only thing keeping a person from screaming.
“He told me,” she said. “About the affair.”
You said nothing.
“He said it was with a man.”
Still you said nothing.
And then, very quietly, “He said you found out accidentally.”
There it was. Close enough to the truth to slice. Mercifully, he had kept the worst of it.
“Yes,” you said.
She inhaled shakily. “I keep trying to understand whether this is one betrayal or several.”
“All I can tell you,” you said, “is that none of it is your fault.”
Laura laughed then, bitter and exhausted. “Women always say that to each other in disasters, don’t we?”
“Because sometimes we need the reminder.”
She was quiet for a long time.
“I asked him if he loved me,” she said at last. “He said yes. I asked him if he loved him. He said he didn’t know.”
The sentence hung there, unbearably human in its ugliness.
“What am I supposed to do with that?” she whispered.
You looked at the darkening kitchen window and saw your own reflection, older and tired and somehow more awake than you had been in years.
“You do not have to decide tonight,” you said. “You only have to get through tonight.”
A small sob escaped her then, quickly smothered.
“I’m sorry,” you said. “I am so, so sorry.”
